Random mumblings of a no-longer Art History-type person.
That's right y'all. I've straight up quit the humanities. I'm working a dead-end office job, saving up to go back to school and get a BS in computer science... because I think I'd be good at it, and it would be more fulfilling at this point in my life. So yeah, I pretty much wasted like 6 years of my life, but who's counting? Me.
Also, I have bi-polar disorder so I often post crazy stuff as I am emotionally unbalanced. So enjoy that.
Ugh I’m such an asshole…
I am crazy stressed at work right now… now, you may be thinking “Hey, you’re on tumblr so you must not be that busy..”
That’s the thing.
I have a million things to do before next Friday (our golf outing), but I’m sitting on my hands waiting for data and documents from other people. I’ve done everything… literally EVERYTHING… I can do at this point.
I hate this shit because I have anxiety issues so my heart is beating really fast and I have troubles breathing, and I keep looking at the clock and getting faint… but I’m literally just fucking around on the internet… or sometimes just staring blankly at the wall…
But I’m going to Adler After Dark tonight. Hopefully I can chill long enough to enjoy all the SCIENCE! I will probably have to get drunk on expensive drinks to chill enough : \ I’ve had to up my sleeping meds, because it’s hard to fall asleep these days with all this anxiety…
So, I just have to live like this until next Friday at like 2:30-3:00 I guess : \
I just had this long conversation at D about anime… and it was really well thought out with solid arguments and historical referents. If only it paid well, an anime reviewer would probably be the best job for me… but I’d probably be to theoretical and use my art historical background and it wouldn’t be funny enough for people to enjoy.
I’m anxious because tomorrow I need to shampoo my disgusting hair and I’m afraid of color fade ; __ ;
Finally catching up on my anime (now that I’m winding down on the constant playing of Guild Wars 2) as the next season is already starting… Sometimes anime doesn’t have to be thought provoking… sometimes it can just be funny… or cute… but not too cute. That’s why I dropped One Week Friends.
But watching Soredemo Sekai was Utsukushii makes me feel like a pedophile. It’s so adorable, though…
Also started Mekakucity Actors finally, but after the first episode I’m kind of ‘meh’… it’s kinda cute and funny… I’ll give it a few more episodes.
This season I’m watching:
I’ve noticed that I never seem to be watching the anime that r/anime seems to discuss all the time. Am I watching bad anime, or are they? Hm.
Someone at D’s work suggested I start a suburban anime club… when I was drunk I was all like “oh yeah, this is an awesome idea! I know all the good anime hell yeah come over and let’s do this shit!”… but now I’m all like “I have to lead on something?! Pick out anime that I think are good, but maybe they won’t and then they’ll hate me forever and ever and ever and what if they only like shonen or mecha or afasjfnkasjfskajflk” but… I’m a snob and think I watch great anime, so I feel like I’d be doing god’s work exposing them to fine anime, especially since many of them have been out of the scene since high school and are around my age o.o