Random mumblings of a no-longer Art History-type person.

That's right y'all. I've straight up quite the humanities. I'm working a dead-end office job, saving up to go back to school and get a BS in computer science... because I think I'd be good at it, and it would be more fulfilling at this point in my life. So yeah, I pretty much wasted like 6 years of my life, but who's counting? Me.

Also, I have bi-polar disorder so I often post crazy stuff as I am emotionally unbalanced. So enjoy that.

 

I love that my dad volunteers for my work, so he can call to ask about projects and we can just end up talking about all our Game of Thrones theories…

Saturday it was like 80 degrees out and sunny… and today it is snowing. Not just flurries… like actual, fluffy snow falling at a pretty good rate. It’s not sticking, because the ground is too warm, but god damn it’s snowing a lot!

So I searched all over my computer, but can’t find my princess jellyfish anywhere… I couldn’t re-torrent it, because D is playing games online T__T

The dub is on youtube, so I’ve been watching it. It’s actually kind of good, and I’m the type of person who always looks down on dubs… but to be fair… like 99% of dubs are the worst things to ever ever happen. Ever.

One of my favorite animes of all time. Wish there were more fantastic Josei like this.

(Source: aumea)

pale-little-thing:

So I’m thinking of buying this outfit for the Ren Faire today… it’s a ridiculous amount of money, though (~$500)… I have plenty of money… it’s just I’ve been so good about saving >.<
I bought the corset last year (it was $300 x__x but very nicely made and out of expensive fabric…).
I can understand the cost of the thing, because I know how expensive the fabric is for it… and the lower teal part is a bustle (which require a lot of fabric and are super hard to make).
I have until the end of today to decide, and I’m thinking of going for it. It isn’t even remotely accurate, but it’s so god damn pretty and will match my corset nicely… and our Ren Faire isn’t exactly about accuracy as there are god damn furries walking around all over the place =__= and cosplayers galore.
Should I go for it?

I bought it x___x now I can’t spend money for the next few months.  They are special making everything for me, because I’m short ^____^ Can’t wait to wear this to the Ren Faire this summer! I feel like I can justify this purchase, because most people my age go out drinking every weekend… spending god-who-knows how much… and I sit at home watching free anime and playing video games I already have… so… yay?
There’s a similar level of craftsmanship as my wedding dress had… and that was A LOT more expensive… plus I’m reusing my wedding slip for this costume! yay.
I am going insane trying to justify this in every possible way, even though I’m a grown ass adult who has a lot of money saved and should be able to blow a bit of it every once in a while if I feel like it. 

pale-little-thing:

So I’m thinking of buying this outfit for the Ren Faire today… it’s a ridiculous amount of money, though (~$500)… I have plenty of money… it’s just I’ve been so good about saving >.<

I bought the corset last year (it was $300 x__x but very nicely made and out of expensive fabric…).

I can understand the cost of the thing, because I know how expensive the fabric is for it… and the lower teal part is a bustle (which require a lot of fabric and are super hard to make).

I have until the end of today to decide, and I’m thinking of going for it. It isn’t even remotely accurate, but it’s so god damn pretty and will match my corset nicely… and our Ren Faire isn’t exactly about accuracy as there are god damn furries walking around all over the place =__= and cosplayers galore.

Should I go for it?

I bought it x___x now I can’t spend money for the next few months.  They are special making everything for me, because I’m short ^____^ Can’t wait to wear this to the Ren Faire this summer! I feel like I can justify this purchase, because most people my age go out drinking every weekend… spending god-who-knows how much… and I sit at home watching free anime and playing video games I already have… so… yay?

There’s a similar level of craftsmanship as my wedding dress had… and that was A LOT more expensive… plus I’m reusing my wedding slip for this costume! yay.

I am going insane trying to justify this in every possible way, even though I’m a grown ass adult who has a lot of money saved and should be able to blow a bit of it every once in a while if I feel like it. 

whimmy-bam:

sirileigh:

prllnce:

meggchan:

Mine is mostly cognitive.

I have all three. Well oops.

Dammit! So do I!

No one has said this yet, so I feel I must.
THANK YOU FOR THIS.
So many people don’t seem to understand that social anxiety can manifest itself in multiple ways. Some people will just dismiss that you have social anxiety if you don’t fit into what they perceive it to be, and that lack of understanding can be really hurtful. So thank you for this.
(And as my personal comment, I fit into behavioural and cognitive.)

This is a really good representation.  I mostly fit in physical and behavioral. I used to throw up every morning before high school&#8230; when walking to classes my heart would be so much I&#8217;d feel like I was gong to pass out. I couldn&#8217;t breathe for shit. This carried on into college&#8230; I remember before each Japanese class I went to the bathroom and had to do breathing exercises and splash my face with cold water because I was heating up and blushing so much.
When I started treating my bipolar disorder with medication, a lot of my social anxiety symptoms went away. It was really weird. What was weirder was how I didn&#8217;t notice. One day I was talking to someone from a class and it dawned on me - holy shit I&#8217;m talking to someone I don&#8217;t know intimately. Comfortably. I&#8217;m not sweating through my shirt.  I still get upset stomach and problems breathing when I make phone calls and stuff&#8230;. but it&#8217;s amazingly better. I&#8217;m able to make friends and go to parties and stuff&#8230; so overall it&#8217;s awesome.

whimmy-bam:

sirileigh:

prllnce:

meggchan:

Mine is mostly cognitive.

I have all three. Well oops.

Dammit! So do I!

No one has said this yet, so I feel I must.

THANK YOU FOR THIS.

So many people don’t seem to understand that social anxiety can manifest itself in multiple ways. Some people will just dismiss that you have social anxiety if you don’t fit into what they perceive it to be, and that lack of understanding can be really hurtful. So thank you for this.

(And as my personal comment, I fit into behavioural and cognitive.)

This is a really good representation.  I mostly fit in physical and behavioral. I used to throw up every morning before high school… when walking to classes my heart would be so much I’d feel like I was gong to pass out. I couldn’t breathe for shit. This carried on into college… I remember before each Japanese class I went to the bathroom and had to do breathing exercises and splash my face with cold water because I was heating up and blushing so much.

When I started treating my bipolar disorder with medication, a lot of my social anxiety symptoms went away. It was really weird. What was weirder was how I didn’t notice. One day I was talking to someone from a class and it dawned on me - holy shit I’m talking to someone I don’t know intimately. Comfortably. I’m not sweating through my shirt.  I still get upset stomach and problems breathing when I make phone calls and stuff…. but it’s amazingly better. I’m able to make friends and go to parties and stuff… so overall it’s awesome.

So I&#8217;m thinking of buying this outfit for the Ren Faire today&#8230; it&#8217;s a ridiculous amount of money, though (~$500)&#8230; I have plenty of money&#8230; it&#8217;s just I&#8217;ve been so good about saving &gt;.&lt;
I bought the corset last year (it was $300 x__x but very nicely made and out of expensive fabric&#8230;).
I can understand the cost of the thing, because I know how expensive the fabric is for it&#8230; and the lower teal part is a bustle (which require a lot of fabric and are super hard to make).
I have until the end of today to decide, and I&#8217;m thinking of going for it. It isn&#8217;t even remotely accurate, but it&#8217;s so god damn pretty and will match my corset nicely&#8230; and our Ren Faire isn&#8217;t exactly about accuracy as there are god damn furries walking around all over the place =__= and cosplayers galore.
Should I go for it?

So I’m thinking of buying this outfit for the Ren Faire today… it’s a ridiculous amount of money, though (~$500)… I have plenty of money… it’s just I’ve been so good about saving >.<

I bought the corset last year (it was $300 x__x but very nicely made and out of expensive fabric…).

I can understand the cost of the thing, because I know how expensive the fabric is for it… and the lower teal part is a bustle (which require a lot of fabric and are super hard to make).

I have until the end of today to decide, and I’m thinking of going for it. It isn’t even remotely accurate, but it’s so god damn pretty and will match my corset nicely… and our Ren Faire isn’t exactly about accuracy as there are god damn furries walking around all over the place =__= and cosplayers galore.

Should I go for it?

beelzebufess:

camwhoreconfessional:

icantfeelmyarms:

mintyprincess:

CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS FOR A FUCKING MINUTE

this makes me so uncomfortable in a very primal way.

i don’t really know how to proces this

THIS IS THE BEST THING EVER. I recommend watching this video in a public space where people cannot *see* the video, but can hear it.

praxis-cat:

Fantasy story where a prince defeats a dragon and takes his gold, only to cause the collapse of his kingdom due to massive inflation.