Random mumblings of a no-longer Art History-type person.

That's right y'all. I've straight up quit the humanities. I'm working a dead-end office job, saving up to go back to school and get a BS in computer science... because I think I'd be good at it, and it would be more fulfilling at this point in my life. So yeah, I pretty much wasted like 6 years of my life, but who's counting? Me.

Also, I have bi-polar disorder so I often post crazy stuff as I am emotionally unbalanced. So enjoy that.

 

So D and I went downtown to get our hair done the other day and decided we wanted to go get a really nice, expensive dinner. We had a $100 gift card to a fancy, Italian restaurant so we went. It was amazing. We had fried calamari and shrimp for appetizers… Then I had a salad… and then I had Chicken Vesuvio (one of my favs)… D had soup and a strip steak.

But about a little over an hour of getting home, I started vomiting uncontrollably… for like 4.5 hours, along with other symptoms. I literally felt like I was dying. I stayed up until 1:30 am vomiting, and eventually felt safe enough to take my meds and go to bed. No vomiting yet today, but there has been other unpleasant stuff. Still surviving on 7-up and saltines crackers. Really pissed that it cost over $150 and I got food poisoning… debating calling the restaurant, bit I’m not a confrontational person….

renaki:

I sent my girlfriend a cute hentai story on snapchat.

Seriously wondering how she puts up with me.

I wish I’d get messages like this XD

I’ve had a really, really bad week. Really… really bad. Doctor Who just helped out a little… I almost lost hope in the beginning, but it really pulled through in the end.

The ALS Challenge makes me glad that I don’t have any friends… well, at least not friends into sensationalism and wastefulness. I’m also too poor to donate to most charities right now ; _ ; It would be nice if there was something this public about mental health…

Depression is one helluva drug… : \

Illustrated Book of Japanese Monsters by Gojin Ishihara

mortisia:

rhade-zapan:

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Kappa (river imp)

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Jorōgumo (lit. “whore spider”)

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Kubire-oni (strangler demon)

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Rokurokubi (long-necked woman)

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Onmoraki (bird demon)

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Nekomata (cat monster)

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Tengu (bird-like demon)

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Tenjō-sagari (ceiling dweller)

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Enma Dai-Ō (King of Hell)

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Kyūbi no kitsune (nine-tailed fox)

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Baku (dream-eating chimera)

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Yūrei (ghost)

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Yamasei (mountain sprite)

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Rashōmon no oni (ogre of Rashōmon Gate)

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Waira (mountain-dwelling chimera)

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Nure-onna (snake woman)

a w e s o m e

Got sick while exercising… might be something serious from my new meds… have to get blood work tomorrow… nothing can ever go right in my life… I have a huge headache which might just be my brain swelling from lack of sodium that may be slowly killing me ugh… Weirdly I keep saying ‘Mattaku’ in my head in response to everything in my life lately. I’ve been watching too much anime I think. Ugh. Hope I’m not weebing out.

Today I bought a Sailor Moon costume for Halloween.  A nice one. My Halloween sucked a bit last year, because I was in a funk… though my party turned out okay… everyone really loved it… though a bunch of my friends disappeared all of a sudden, because we weren’t fun enough… My Fionna costume was really cool, though. Probably re-wear it this upcoming con season if I can make a crystal sword.

I’ve always wanted a sailor moon costume, but have been kinda irked by sewing lately…

… so even though I’m in a bit of a funk right now… I feel a bit better thanks to consumerism.  And I have a goal to focus on… throwing the best motherfucking Halloween party ever… gonna start planning food and drinks now :D

I can’t believe how depressed I am at a celebrity’s passing… it’s bizarre. I never met him but I’m crushed. I shared my love for Robin Williams’ stand up with my best friend and cousin… who also left in a similar fashion last year… It’s really hard being strong when there are so many road signs to tell you that you don’t belong in this world.