Random mumblings of a no-longer Art History-type person.

That's right y'all. I've straight up quite the humanities. I'm working a dead-end office job, saving up to go back to school and get a BS in computer science... because I think I'd be good at it, and it would be more fulfilling at this point in my life. So yeah, I pretty much wasted like 6 years of my life, but who's counting? Me.

Also, I have bi-polar disorder so I often post crazy stuff as I am emotionally unbalanced. So enjoy that.

 

Being alive makes me want to punch things.

kyarychan:

Submission from :

Hello there! ~
I just wanted to share this little animation I made to commemorate my experience seeing KPP in Chicago. I study Graphic Design, and I have recently begun exploring Motion Graphics. It’s rather rough, but this video is my first completed project utilizing Adobe After Effects to animate a cohesive storyboard. どうぞ! ~

This is amazing, awesome work!!! :D

AHHHHHHHH SO CUTE! I saw Kyary in Chicago, too ^__^ It was such an awesome time.

So I did my 45 of cardio yesterday and barely made it through… my legs were all jelly when I was done. Then D texted me saying they needed a fourth for tennis that evening with some people he works with… so I agreed, even though I suck at tennis. Luckily they weren’t super good, so I didn’t have to be super embarrassed by my suckiness. It was super fun, and I was pretty warmed up having just worked out. We played for a couple of hours… and the weather was really nice. It was actually a bit too warm, and then it started to rain and felt glorious. That’s how you know the weather is finally improving - when rain feels like a relief and not a million needles piercing your skin.

Then I woke up today. I am so fucking sore. MY ASS MUSCLES MAN MY ASS MUSCLES HURT SO MUCH.

But, I got a double workout! And I didn’t binge on anything as a reward. WOO!

I have a psych appointment this Saturday, and she weighs me every time. If I haven’t lost at least 5 pounds I completely give up on the world. Seriously. With all this crazy-level cardio I’ve been doing… and pretty good portion control (except for Easter at my ‘rents… oops).. as well as paying super close attention to my caloric intake… as well as walking the mile to and from work…I just don’t know. I look and feel lighter, but that doesn’t necessarily mean I’ve actually lost weight. I guess I’ll just have to see? AHHHHH.

So last night I woke up in the middle of the night and hallucinated a spider-rat hybrid on my bed. I sat there and just stared at it a bit, knowing that I’m fucking crazy… thinking it’ll go away in a few seconds… but it didn’t. So freaked out and punched it off the bed… and then couldn’t sleep near the edge of the bed anymore, because I was freaked.

So I woke up with what appears to be a small bite mark on my hand??! Wut. D told me I probably just scratched myself in my sleep… but woah.

Also woke up with my shoulder in intense pain T__T Beginning to think I might have to skip my workout today which is making me angry since I’m finally seeing results of my crazy everyday cardio craziness… but I think I injured it by going too crazy yesterday ;A; boo.

I love that my dad volunteers for my work, so he can call to ask about projects and we can just end up talking about all our Game of Thrones theories…

Saturday it was like 80 degrees out and sunny… and today it is snowing. Not just flurries… like actual, fluffy snow falling at a pretty good rate. It’s not sticking, because the ground is too warm, but god damn it’s snowing a lot!

So I searched all over my computer, but can’t find my princess jellyfish anywhere… I couldn’t re-torrent it, because D is playing games online T__T

The dub is on youtube, so I’ve been watching it. It’s actually kind of good, and I’m the type of person who always looks down on dubs… but to be fair… like 99% of dubs are the worst things to ever ever happen. Ever.

One of my favorite animes of all time. Wish there were more fantastic Josei like this.

(Source: aumea)

pale-little-thing:

So I’m thinking of buying this outfit for the Ren Faire today… it’s a ridiculous amount of money, though (~$500)… I have plenty of money… it’s just I’ve been so good about saving >.<
I bought the corset last year (it was $300 x__x but very nicely made and out of expensive fabric…).
I can understand the cost of the thing, because I know how expensive the fabric is for it… and the lower teal part is a bustle (which require a lot of fabric and are super hard to make).
I have until the end of today to decide, and I’m thinking of going for it. It isn’t even remotely accurate, but it’s so god damn pretty and will match my corset nicely… and our Ren Faire isn’t exactly about accuracy as there are god damn furries walking around all over the place =__= and cosplayers galore.
Should I go for it?

I bought it x___x now I can’t spend money for the next few months.  They are special making everything for me, because I’m short ^____^ Can’t wait to wear this to the Ren Faire this summer! I feel like I can justify this purchase, because most people my age go out drinking every weekend… spending god-who-knows how much… and I sit at home watching free anime and playing video games I already have… so… yay?
There’s a similar level of craftsmanship as my wedding dress had… and that was A LOT more expensive… plus I’m reusing my wedding slip for this costume! yay.
I am going insane trying to justify this in every possible way, even though I’m a grown ass adult who has a lot of money saved and should be able to blow a bit of it every once in a while if I feel like it. 

pale-little-thing:

So I’m thinking of buying this outfit for the Ren Faire today… it’s a ridiculous amount of money, though (~$500)… I have plenty of money… it’s just I’ve been so good about saving >.<

I bought the corset last year (it was $300 x__x but very nicely made and out of expensive fabric…).

I can understand the cost of the thing, because I know how expensive the fabric is for it… and the lower teal part is a bustle (which require a lot of fabric and are super hard to make).

I have until the end of today to decide, and I’m thinking of going for it. It isn’t even remotely accurate, but it’s so god damn pretty and will match my corset nicely… and our Ren Faire isn’t exactly about accuracy as there are god damn furries walking around all over the place =__= and cosplayers galore.

Should I go for it?

I bought it x___x now I can’t spend money for the next few months.  They are special making everything for me, because I’m short ^____^ Can’t wait to wear this to the Ren Faire this summer! I feel like I can justify this purchase, because most people my age go out drinking every weekend… spending god-who-knows how much… and I sit at home watching free anime and playing video games I already have… so… yay?

There’s a similar level of craftsmanship as my wedding dress had… and that was A LOT more expensive… plus I’m reusing my wedding slip for this costume! yay.

I am going insane trying to justify this in every possible way, even though I’m a grown ass adult who has a lot of money saved and should be able to blow a bit of it every once in a while if I feel like it. 

whimmy-bam:

sirileigh:

prllnce:

meggchan:

Mine is mostly cognitive.

I have all three. Well oops.

Dammit! So do I!

No one has said this yet, so I feel I must.
THANK YOU FOR THIS.
So many people don’t seem to understand that social anxiety can manifest itself in multiple ways. Some people will just dismiss that you have social anxiety if you don’t fit into what they perceive it to be, and that lack of understanding can be really hurtful. So thank you for this.
(And as my personal comment, I fit into behavioural and cognitive.)

This is a really good representation.  I mostly fit in physical and behavioral. I used to throw up every morning before high school&#8230; when walking to classes my heart would be so much I&#8217;d feel like I was gong to pass out. I couldn&#8217;t breathe for shit. This carried on into college&#8230; I remember before each Japanese class I went to the bathroom and had to do breathing exercises and splash my face with cold water because I was heating up and blushing so much.
When I started treating my bipolar disorder with medication, a lot of my social anxiety symptoms went away. It was really weird. What was weirder was how I didn&#8217;t notice. One day I was talking to someone from a class and it dawned on me - holy shit I&#8217;m talking to someone I don&#8217;t know intimately. Comfortably. I&#8217;m not sweating through my shirt.  I still get upset stomach and problems breathing when I make phone calls and stuff&#8230;. but it&#8217;s amazingly better. I&#8217;m able to make friends and go to parties and stuff&#8230; so overall it&#8217;s awesome.

whimmy-bam:

sirileigh:

prllnce:

meggchan:

Mine is mostly cognitive.

I have all three. Well oops.

Dammit! So do I!

No one has said this yet, so I feel I must.

THANK YOU FOR THIS.

So many people don’t seem to understand that social anxiety can manifest itself in multiple ways. Some people will just dismiss that you have social anxiety if you don’t fit into what they perceive it to be, and that lack of understanding can be really hurtful. So thank you for this.

(And as my personal comment, I fit into behavioural and cognitive.)

This is a really good representation.  I mostly fit in physical and behavioral. I used to throw up every morning before high school… when walking to classes my heart would be so much I’d feel like I was gong to pass out. I couldn’t breathe for shit. This carried on into college… I remember before each Japanese class I went to the bathroom and had to do breathing exercises and splash my face with cold water because I was heating up and blushing so much.

When I started treating my bipolar disorder with medication, a lot of my social anxiety symptoms went away. It was really weird. What was weirder was how I didn’t notice. One day I was talking to someone from a class and it dawned on me - holy shit I’m talking to someone I don’t know intimately. Comfortably. I’m not sweating through my shirt.  I still get upset stomach and problems breathing when I make phone calls and stuff…. but it’s amazingly better. I’m able to make friends and go to parties and stuff… so overall it’s awesome.