Random mumblings of a no-longer Art History-type person.

That's right y'all. I've straight up quit the humanities. I'm working a dead-end office job, saving up to go back to school and get a BS in computer science... because I think I'd be good at it, and it would be more fulfilling at this point in my life. So yeah, I pretty much wasted like 6 years of my life, but who's counting? Me.

Also, I have bi-polar disorder so I often post crazy stuff as I am emotionally unbalanced. So enjoy that.

 

The ALS Challenge makes me glad that I don’t have any friends… well, at least not friends into sensationalism and wastefulness. I’m also too poor to donate to most charities right now ; _ ; It would be nice if there was something this public about mental health…

Depression is one helluva drug… : \

Illustrated Book of Japanese Monsters by Gojin Ishihara

mortisia:

rhade-zapan:

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Kappa (river imp)

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Jorōgumo (lit. “whore spider”)

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Kubire-oni (strangler demon)

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Rokurokubi (long-necked woman)

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Onmoraki (bird demon)

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Nekomata (cat monster)

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Tengu (bird-like demon)

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Tenjō-sagari (ceiling dweller)

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Enma Dai-Ō (King of Hell)

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Kyūbi no kitsune (nine-tailed fox)

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Baku (dream-eating chimera)

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Yūrei (ghost)

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Yamasei (mountain sprite)

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Rashōmon no oni (ogre of Rashōmon Gate)

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Waira (mountain-dwelling chimera)

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Nure-onna (snake woman)

a w e s o m e

Got sick while exercising… might be something serious from my new meds… have to get blood work tomorrow… nothing can ever go right in my life… I have a huge headache which might just be my brain swelling from lack of sodium that may be slowly killing me ugh… Weirdly I keep saying ‘Mattaku’ in my head in response to everything in my life lately. I’ve been watching too much anime I think. Ugh. Hope I’m not weebing out.

Today I bought a Sailor Moon costume for Halloween.  A nice one. My Halloween sucked a bit last year, because I was in a funk… though my party turned out okay… everyone really loved it… though a bunch of my friends disappeared all of a sudden, because we weren’t fun enough… My Fionna costume was really cool, though. Probably re-wear it this upcoming con season if I can make a crystal sword.

I’ve always wanted a sailor moon costume, but have been kinda irked by sewing lately…

… so even though I’m in a bit of a funk right now… I feel a bit better thanks to consumerism.  And I have a goal to focus on… throwing the best motherfucking Halloween party ever… gonna start planning food and drinks now :D

I can’t believe how depressed I am at a celebrity’s passing… it’s bizarre. I never met him but I’m crushed. I shared my love for Robin Williams’ stand up with my best friend and cousin… who also left in a similar fashion last year… It’s really hard being strong when there are so many road signs to tell you that you don’t belong in this world.

Just got so much free wine at a work function… a new bar opened in my town and I got nice wine for free! Because I’m awesome. Also all my pain went away… hope it stays, because one time I got really really drunk the night before my period one time and I got the worst cramps ever and bled like a crazy motherfucker. And a friend of mine was sleeping over and I was like “shit, how do I hide this blood that is fucking everywhere” and I did it. Yeah. Okay I read this over 5 times and it’s kinda readable. I think that bar is going to get a lot of my money. 

… and now I’m bleeding out of my lady parts again and in pain again.